
Caroline
Feels like a head spin, doesn't it. Life can certainly be overwhelming at times - that doesn't even include the things that we have to deal with because of our pasts.
T always says "you're doing a good job" "you're doing the best you can right now" "Hang in there" - he always smiles when he says these things because he knows I've argued the point with him many times. It doesn't FEEL like I do any of those things and I'm sensing that you don't FEEL like you are either. But you are.
Too much to do, too little time. And we question everything that we do - is it the right choice, is it me and I just can't handle it, everyone else seems to handle it fine, what's wrong with me that I can't? Everyone asks themselves these same questions, they just don't ruminate on it like we do. It's not a bad thing, it doesn't make us bad or no good - it is what it is and we are working on becoming happier, healthier, a more positive us.
Go back to your list of prioritizing what has to be done, needs to be done, want to do - and make sure you do at least one of the "want to do" - that's healthy you time and will help you to feel better. Mark off the things you get done and you will see the progress. Writing them out may help you to see that it's "not so bad and perhaps manageable". I know you have a lot to do - you really do.
But, this little list might help take some of those things off your mind because you wrote them on paper. That will free up "brain space" and it won't seem so over whelming. It really works. Freeing up "brain space" gives up less to think about "all the time" and you may even find that you enjoy what you are doing at the moment.
I wish for you a safe, gentle ride for today
Hugs,
Songbird
__________________

"It is good to have an end to journey toward, but it is the journey that matters in the end.