I'm starting to trust you more. Kinda teary, feels good really. I don't understand why you care, but I accept it. beggers can't be choosers. I am begging, I guess I don't want to see that myself. I beg, but it embarases me. It is hard for me to not hurt myself because it makes me mad that I need to beg, I should be able to fend for my own emotional needs. I can't. it hurts me to know this.