Ok guys this is what I sent him: (good or no good? I wish my keyboard had a take back button I'd be smashing it right now. )

Okay I am a little worried about sending this email for two reasons.
One is because it is highly embarrassing, and two is because I am
afraid that you will take going on walks away from me.

Here is goes: I remember when I first started seeing you and we talked
about my childhood you said it wasn't normal. I mean it was always
normal to me because it's all I never knew. The more I think about it
though, the more I realize it wasn't. I never really got any of my
needs met. I was always left on my own to figure it own for myself. I
was never dependent on anyone else, even when I wanted to or needed to
be. I often wonder if it is too late to learn how to fulfill those
needs that weren't met?

Anyway, when we went on the walk, and we stopped at the vet to pick up
you kitties food, something pretty amazing connections were being
made. When I was leaning on the counter looking up at you, I felt like
a little kid. I felt like all my little kid needs were being met. I
felt comforted, and so safe by your side, it felt good. I felt like
our connection could not be touched. I realized right then and there
that even though you wouldn't hug me, that you make up for it in other
ways. That being in that moment right there, made me feel a million
times better than a hug ever could. It calmed down all my aggressive
and agitated feelings, and just put me at a calm, that I haven't felt
in so long.

I felt like it was important that I shared this with you. *But at the
same time I am really scared by doing that you will take away our
walks. I hope you don't. Will you? It was super helpful and they mean
a lot to me now.