Psychosis voices hallucinations(auditory and visual and the rest)

I believe others believe I have some or all of these. I've been me my whole life, I refuse to view myself through the eyes of others. I've been deceived in my life before by my psychosis. I've deceived others before also. I can't tell anyone what my experience of life is "like." Maybe I could say, "Yay or nay" as far as whether I experience things others do or do not. I think everyone has a "twin." Like; we are pleasant outwardly, but inwardly, we fantasize about unpleasantries.

I am not frightened now as I was when I was younger. Sometimes I become afraid of needless stuff, but not nearly as often. I am not able to believe in the spiritual predators of christian mythology. I believe that I need help to stay safe in the day to day of my life, currently.