Welcome!

I think it definitely could be dissociation. If it is, your therapist will help you figure out what's going on. Have you told her what you've written here?

When I first started going to a therapist, I had no idea I was dissociating. I went for help with an eating disorder. Turns out that was only one thing I was dealing with.

I hope you will find some answers. It's scary not knowing what's going. As I got more awareness, I felt like things were getting worse for me and things felt more and more out of control. I think that's kind of normal though. As I've worked through therapy, I have gotten stronger and I can see improvements now. If you are dissociating, chances are you've been doing it for a very long time. We need awareness first in order to move forward and it sounds like you are getting that.

Be gentle with yourself as you figure out what's going on. No matter what is going on, there is help and life can get better.

Take good care,
wanttoheal