Kane, I am also no expert at all, but I think it is very telling that your username is all about your feelings for your girlfriend (I presume), your 'about me' is really about you being her boyfriend, and your post here is about your feelings regarding your girlfriend. I say this with the utmost compassion, but it sounds like you are more obsessed than in love. You appear to be quiet dependent on her. If you can find/create a fulfilling life outside of your girlfriend, that might be a healthy step to take.