Not sure if this should be regarded as triggering or not, but...

I think I have made progress in my 2 years with T - there is still much that has felt too unsafe to talk about, but I think this is a degree of trust and understanding that has grown.

I had things under control in my head, certain things protected and it felt manageable to let them out bit by bit. But it feels like suddenly this week, what I accept now as a ED has raised its head. I won't go into details on here, but there is stuff that I have never shared with anyone and that my head is telling me to keep secret from T as he will not approve.

I absolutely know that the rational thing to do is to talk to T, but there is part of me that won't let me do that, I think he would challenge me and I just can't allow him to do that at the moment - the urges connected to eating are just too strong right now.

I just wondered if anyone else has experienced an unhelpful behaviour kicking off and have struggled to share with T and what you did?