Went to my new therapist. The session was great. I felt safe and comfortable right off. It helps that I have known her on a work level for a few years and watched her help other people. We talked about my other T and we talked about my being borderline and how I know that I am. She said some nice things about borderline people and how she learned from one of them. She talked about forming safety nets to protect both of us on my spiritual quest and discussed my other T's concern about delussional states. She explained how we can tell if I should become delusional. This was a massive relief to me because I have seen people come into the shop (I work at a metaphysical bookstore) who are indeed delusional and know how easy it is to fall from reality.

The question she asked and said that needs to be answered is whether or not the purpose of my going to see her is to cause chaos in my life by bringing chaos into my relationship with my T. She said that the only one who can help me find that answer is him. He knows me best, much better then she does, and so she feels I need to discuss the move with him. To be truthful I totally forgot the chaos theory. It was a shock to be confronted with it. It got me to wondering. I had a dream last night that was interesting and dealt with it but I will have to write about it later because I have to get to work now.
Talk to you soon,
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft