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Originally Posted by Velvet Cactus
Squiggle don't you see? You are supposed to go through it. No need to feel bad about it! You are probably right that your T doesn't know unless you tell her. You see until you resolve it with her you are blocking your progress on learning how to love others in the real world. Whenever I have hit a topic I found hard to bring up with my T- I wrote it out first. Then in session I would look at my notes and babble on. Would you be able to write something out and give it to your T? If she did fine with it the first time, there is no reason not to believe she would not again, right? Would you not feel the weight of the world off of your shoulders once you dealt with it once and for all? I know it's not easy, but what's the worst that could happen? What does telling her mean to YOU? 
Velvet |
I have talked with her about a lot of things. Even that of having uncomfortable feelings about her. I did admit that to her last year. Yes, I did tell her they were of a sexual nature at times. I don't feel
love for her, though. It is all attraction and the '
erotic' thoughts at times. I don't know that I could ever talk with her about that again. I just can't.
I am sure that she would tell me that it is not that surprising that I have these feelings given the issues I am facing in therapy. Talking with her about unfulfillment in my RL and how much I feel cheated that I don't have an intimate relationship is a huge part of our discussions. I would definitely feel better if I had someone to talk to about these erotic feelings and emotions. I just can't talk about it with her since she is the one I have those thoughts and feelings about!