Well a few weeks ago I finally went in to see the school counselor...and she told me that she thinks I have depression. The only way I can get help from an actual mental health specialist is to get parental permission, but I know I won't be able to ask for that. So I have a feeling I will be like this for a while even though I still go and see the school counselor on a weekly basis...and the feeling just get worse. I feel like I'm never going to get better...like I am just going to continue to get worse. I don't want this to happen, I know nobody does. But I don't understand why this happened either. Nothing has changed recently. It's just gradually gotten worse. I always feel like I'm in a dream. I'm always tired. I don't enjoy sports when they were my whole life before. And I don't understand it. I feel hopeless for the future...breaking down a lot. I'm frustrated, lost, confused, intimidated...I just want to get better but I don't think that will ever happen.

Just getting some things out there, you don't have to reply if you don't want to.