I've been off my medication for almost a year now and I'm so proud of myself, but the past few months I've been trying (and failing) to get through a depressed period. It's gotten to the point where I'm happy one second, the next wanting to yell at anyone near me. All I want to do is sleep. I've had small psychotic episodes before and I'm terrified of ever being in that place again, I've worked so hard to get to where I am now. I keep having moments where I'll think of doing something (ex:saying something), and then not knowing if I really did or not. I can tell that my moods are affecting the people around me and I'm doing positive things to try and fix this like setting up GED classes and cleaning to keep occupied. I'm re-starting my meds in a few days. I'm just worried that by letting it get this far it might be too late for them to work, one of my biggest fears is having to be hospitalized again after so much progress.

Does anyone have any experience with this or advice?

Thank you very much

-StaticRainbow