Best thing to do is to ask your parents for permission don't try to hide it and make pretend everything is ok. I've felt confused like you but talking to a proffesonial will help find out why you're depressed. Don't wait until it's too late and up making your depression worse. Feeling like you're in dream will get worse if you don't stop it now Trust me !

Get help now before you end up like me four years depressed alone in a room.