I don't have a therapist, because insurance will not pay me one because you know... meds and me not being on them. So yeah, it is my problem and mine only, right? (I am also shocked you mention a therapist before family and friends, but whatever).

I am holding up quite well so far. Learned to deal with those dark times. And I do have family and friends to help me through. I have my spirituality to cling too. It's not easy, but I am fine. Not stable my any means, but I do maintain my life quite well I think.

and what literature are you talking about? Surely not Whitetake or Breggin, whom don't see meds as necesity - more as a potentially harmful.

And I agree with Anika, hostility just ain't needed. If you need to be hostile to others to keep yourself on your track then something is wrong (maybe it is not even the right track, if you cannot reasonable tell yourself "hey, this is working for me, let's not mess with it" and instead have to be hostile to others... well, there is a problem. For your and for those you are hostile to).

I am saying to each their own. If you need meds and are truly better on them (as in you still are able to to feel and live normally and are not whacked out "still depressed, but I don't care"), then fine. After all my herbs and **** are also mind altering substances. But please, respect me. I have my reasons and I have my struggles.