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Hi my names Ella and i have problems with drinking and drugs .
The main drugs i use to take where marijuana and Valium at the moment because of my mental health not being so good i am still on Valium prescribed by my Dr i don't abuse them like i use to or take them for any other reasons than to calm me down when am anxious or agitated ...am unsure weather to include them as part my addictions .
the last time i had a drink was on the 3rd of February this year
i use to go to AA but i found it hard to go because of social anxiety as i don't leave the house or go anywhere by myself .
Also i have DID and the alters / personalizes some that also like to drink we but after what recently been going on with myself ( psychosis and delusions according my husband) i don't want us to drink again because i think that may have had something to do with drinking ( i drank while on medication for hearing voices and delusions) it may have made things worse
during the time drinking i thought that i was in control of it and would have a bottle what ever i was drinking every day but it was it controlling me and it made me worse of having it
so i have decided that i no longer want to drink because of my mental health
Today i have been ok mostly not really craving anything at the moment but there are days where i do crave drugs and drink
Ella
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