I had a boyfriend for almost 2 years, until July of 2011. I broke up with him then, because I was very unhappy in the relationship and felt that we should break up. The whole time through the breakup, I was really concerned about his feelings and I still really cared about him. Then, not even a month later, he got a girlfriend. I found out about it on facebook. When I talked to him about it I was really hurt. He tried to make me feel better, but really, all I remember is him saying "YOU broke up with ME."
I know it may seem trivial to some, but this situation shattered me to the core. I was deeply depressed for a few months and had to increase my antidepressant.
I think what shattered me the most was, this didn't turn out the way I thought it would. I just didn't think he'd move on like that so quickly. My therapist said something that really resonated with me a while back, and I just can't move on from this: she said, I think you are upset because You cared so much for him and tried to protect him so much. And he didn't do the same for you. She's right.
Maybe I need some kind of closure. I don't know. But I don't want to talk to him. And I'm worried I might see him somewhere out and about, run into him. He was close to my grandpa, what if he goes to the funeral when my grandpa dies. I still have not figured out a plan for if I do run into him. Everytime I think about it, I feel sick.
But one thing I know for sure, is that I do not want to let this ruin me. I don't want to become a hateful person. Or an angry bitter person forever. I wanna be happy.
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