Thanks Roadie,

So I'm being ridiculous, right? I want to believe that I am. Many people have told me that what I did was normal enough for the age that I was; that I was a hormonal kid. It just bothers me so much that I was aroused by my cat in the first place; I felt an urge and I acted on it, so isn't it more than childhood curiosity? I seem to need constant reassurance for what I did, that it wasn't abnormal, that I was a kid (because trust me, I've been having a hard time seeing that I was a kid, because I was in 7th grade and since i'm only 23 the memory is still there). Also, if your partner told you something like this, would it affect the way you look at them? I'm having a hard time because I feel like i'm hiding this crucial event from my boyfriend and close friends, an event that if they knew about, they may judge me and see me differently. Or is this just irrelevant because I was a kid and why would they care about something seemingly 'insignificant' that I did as a kid? You see how I OBSESS over this constantly? I've honestly been obsessing over this since May.