It looks like my period feeling awesome is coming to an end. Day before yesterday I noticed I was having a bit of cycling. Nothing too major so I pretty much ignored it. Yesterday was a bit worst and I had a few episodes of mixed states. Songs would come on the radio I would barely be able to keep from crying while, at the same time, I wanted to rip somebody's head off. I'd be happy but yet feel depressed. I HATE that feeling. Today has been absolutely horrible. I was up until after 4:00 with my five month old, got into bed at 5:00 and didn't go to sleep until around 6:00. I woke up at around 10:00. Emotionally today has been hell. I'm rapid cycling. I'm having mixed states. I can't think straight. I can't take a nap because I get woken up or my mind won't shut down. Last night I kept silencing the TV because I kept hearing whispering and bells ringing.

I'm wondering if I should up my Seroquel to 75 mg. or wait and see how I feel in a few days. I am so upset that I've ended up in this condition. I've felt better than I have in over two and a half years the past few months. I was hoping that would continue but instead I'm sliding down the proverbial hill.