Thanks for the hugs, rainbow. We went for an hour from the time that we started. Plus as you know she gives me a free weekly phonecall plus close texting 6 days a week. The problem is that she does too much. But I am a bit part of that and I really benefit, so on the rare occasions it impacts on me, it makes sense for me to shut up and put up. Now I feel guilty for complaining on here I think it was hard because it was such an important session, and she knew I had been literally bursting to talk about this stuff for a whole week (and was feeling very vulnerable and ambivalent about telling her), and she was so blase about being so late (I had left and she texted me to say 'where are you?', not 'I'm sorry' or anything). Plus as I sat waiting I told myself that she was just helping someone suicidal, and there were lots of times she had helped me, so the HR thing threw me, because I literally can't understand how calling them then would have made any difference... Ugh. Let. It. Go, Improving...