oh, doggiedo, I'm so sorry you're down. a lot of what you wrote really spoke to me; I've wondered the same things this weekend (minus the b/f). sometimes life feels so pointless. I am by myself far too much and it's easy to sit and ponder the big picture. are others so distracted by their busy lives that they don't worry about these things?

it's great that you have a boyfriend and his kids distract you for a little bit. I'm also glad you're feeling better. I was sick a couple weekends ago and posted here and some kind soul reminded me that when you're physically down, your emotions seem to follow. you're probably not back to 100% physically and emotionally so please be kind to yourself. things will get better. oh, and if you figure out the answers to those questions, please email them to me immediately!

take care.