I have been with my boyfriend for over a year, at the start things was fine and he made the happiest girl alive as I was down and depressed before I got with him but now I am worse off. But a few months into the relationship he turned violent and controlling. I wasn't aloud out with my friends, see my family, he would cheat then say it was my fault, say I was fat and ugly, wasn't aloud my own money. It would start of as he didn't get his own way over silly things and he would punch, bite, kick, strangle me. I got pregnant about 6 months into the relationship, and he promised he would change so we moved in together I was far away from anyone I knew and one night we had an argument and he threw a tv at my stomach and I was rushed to hospital put on morphine and I lost alot of blood, I was 4 months pregnant. After that he started saying its my fault the baby was dead and he is glad it was gone, and he didn't think he was the dad anyway when he was. Not long ago he kicked me in the head loads of times and strangled me. Smashed the place up, my laptop and phone and a friend called the police, I got bruises all over my face and body I can't even look in the mirror now. They arrested him and he isn't aloud to contact me, or ring but he has rang he won't stop ringing. I'm back with a family member safe so he doesn't know where I am, but I can't stay here long incase he finds out where I am. I don't know what I have done to deserve this I feel like it's my fault the baby is gone. But I feel like I deserved all this and I can't be without him. I feel like i'm loosing my mind, I'm not going to contact him because im scared he will find me. He admitted to the police he done it and he has done it most days for over 9months, it might end up in court but I dunno if I can go through with it. I love him. But I don't want him to hurt anyone else or hurt me again, I need to walk away else he will end up killing me and he even said to me before he wants to kill me. I need some friendly advice and support from someone who knows what to do and how I can get through this. I got a meeting with the domestic abuse team tomorrow and I need to tell them everything that has happened because before I didn't tell them because I was scared. I can't even go and get my stuff I got no clothes or nothing till the police take me to go get it from my place. He isn't aloud near my place as the tenancy is mine. I'm going to have to move somewhere where he can't find me,but i'll be alone. Please someone help.