Trust is a big issue with my husband and my on-line use. I did have an emotional affair on-line and it hurt my husband very much. We have worked on this situation but I think sometimes he still is worried. He knows that I feel bad for what I did. Sometimes I even feel ashamed. But there was a reason for it. I tried giving up all on-line communication but there were times when it was the only way I could communicate. I would send hubby e-mails and such. Finally I knew that not doing it was hurting to much so I started searching for a support group that would be a safe place for me to share the things that I couldn't talk about otherwise. I am rambling a bit now. I have no clue where I was going with this. Sigh. I guess what I am trying to say is he and I have an unspoken agreement. I don't instant message and he has access to all that I do on-line (the parent snooping programs are not just for kids, lol) I tell him what I am doing and who I am talking to. Actually you all are the only people I talk to. He has also seen my tremendous effort in therapy where I am learning to speak, learning to feel, learning to say things that he might not want to hear. One time I told him it was going to suck big time when I started to complain constantly. Funny thing is there is very little to complain about now that I am actually talking.
Zen

<font color=blue>that I would be good even if I did nothing, that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down, that I would be good if I got and stayed sick, that I would be good even if I gained 10 pounds-- Alanis Morissette