I keep waiting for the day.... I have know pain, sorrow, hurt, abuse and aloneness all of my life....I can't see any hope right now ..... I am at the end, where the mind can't recover..... I wish you were here KD..... I wish that I had a friend that understood me.... and just wanted to hold my hand in comfort.... Nancy I love her dearly but her brain does not function anymore.... I have children but they are young and have their own lives..... i am to complicated for them to help me.....