...i just made a post and lost it and that makes me mad and even more sadder because i said some things honestly about being alone and scared and no one helping me and now I can't say them again.

I wish I had not pushed everyone away. I wish I was not so fiercely independant ...i wish I knew how to ask for help with some things i am going through, I wish people would give me help and caring without all the adult yuck stuff.

I am sorry if I am making everyone sad and mad too, I don't mean to. I don't mean to do alot of stuff but i always do...............i feel incapacitated my by own inability to seek out what i need - i don't even know what i need......but i know i need to get support or i will be eaten alive by the pain

Storm/Stone