I've succeded at stuff before. Other get jealous and vindictive, it wasn't worth it for me. I failed at maintaining my health for a long time. I had to deal with enormous disappointment from myself and, seemingly, others. It hurt. I'm sick and everyone was disappointed I wasn't financially successful on top of it. I am a successful guitarist because my wife enjoys my performences. I am happy with my success. The world doesn't owe me anything. It has given plenty, I appreciate all of it.