I think this is a good portion of it. I figure the more I actually get in there and talk and pay attention and sort out....the faster im going to be "better". There's no since in prolonging it. Ive buried feelings for so long I feel I need to "get on with it already". Its also so new to me...all this talking and thinking and paying attention to feelings. So its like I need to do something with all of it! He's really the only person I talk with about emotions and serious things. Its a "first" for me so i fear getting attached to that but maybe its part of the process that needs to happen? I have a lack of emotional connection with people in my life. I unintentionally keep them at a distance. Part of me wonders if I hurry up and let that kind of relationship happen with T in a T setting instead of dragging it out week by week that eventually I will learn how to do it in my own life and T can still be there in the wings if I need him?