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Hi again Azalysa (now that I've spelled it right - )</font>

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I totally isolate in the house, unplug the phone ~and~ the answering machine; I cry over nothing and sometimes rock back and forth in despair; then there are periods where I sleep almost days on end as escape, abuse meds (ie sleeping pills) to keep myself "knocked out"

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Interesting how this part came out... Are you reading my mind now?? I, too, rely heavily on Xanax to keep me from running rampid. Without them, I literally go spastic. I cannot calm down, I cannot sleep, I cannot stay in one spot - and it is just an overall horrible horrbile time-frame.

What disturbs me the most is how my P-doc always says "I'm abusing them" whenever I'm allocated max 5/day and she'll write them out and write them out. I can't see how a person can allege abuse when they are A) Using them as they are prescribed and B) THAT IS WHAT THEY ARE MADE FOR!!! It is just so irritating (and disturbing) that a doctor is willig to write RX's out, but then you get the third degree for using them..... Now if Xanax wasn't on the Controlled list, I guarantee that I would have any slack!!! As if we need more added to our plate with the doc's doing what they do....

Nevertheless, whenever you get the urge to hide, come PM/find me and we'll try to 'un-hide' together Hope you are doing well dear... Take it easy..
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