Lostmyway,
A good thing came from you going to your session with your email afterwards. I am proud of you. I like it when you can explain to t by saying, "this is what I want to do...." instead of just out and doing it. T's appreciate it too and I noticed it is really much more useful than doing the acting out. It also has far less consequences. You were very brave to tell t your vulnerable feelings. Good job.