No, at this point I don't have either. I was going to Therapy but when I saw the charges I was incurring I quit (I don't have insurance) and I was also taking prozac but my script ran out and I don't have a doctor anymore since my divorce. I need them- I think.

Now, it's been months since I've taken anything or seen anyone and I back on a downward spiral. I just don't have the energy to do anything. . . at all. I feel like I'm going to ruin everything. I'm in school, which is going well. I completed my first semester with a 4.0 but the class are from the 'Arts' and were easy for me, I don't know how I'll do with anything challenging.

I've been dating a very wonderful man since October and we've gotten to a point where we would like to spend more time together. I would love to do that but my house isn't company ready, I haven't been able to keep up with things lately. I know what I need to do, but I just can't get myself up to do it. . . Heck, I haven't showered yet and normally don't unless I'm going to leave the house.

What I do know, is that I have four children who need 'me' and I don't seem to available. To add on to my depressive state, I have a large amout of guilt because I can see everything that I fail at.