This is my pattern also - as soon as I "notice" it, whatever "it" is - developing a good habit for so many days, whatever! - that's it, the streak is OVER. I HATE when I notice, because I know that's the beginning of the end. I realize this is "magical thinking". I overcame a previous belief in magical thinking, that everytime something good happened, I would have to "pay" for it big time - you can see how that could be a self-fulfilling prophecy. This probably is too - for me it was uncovering the fear and anger and hatred (not all mine!) behind the first set of thoughts. Thanks for bringing this up; I like your imagery of being on the ladder then looking down at your feet! That'll doom ya!