Yesterday was a massive mania day for me. I woke up in a great mood, which is unusual because I am not a morning person. I had maybe 4 hours of sleep, but I felt wide awake. During my normal morning routine, I felt hyper, ready to go, and way positive about everything. At work, I was getting a lot done and felt good about that. There were several times throughout the day that I felt like I was on speed pills. I was shaking at times due to hyperness. I was awake until almost midnight (thanks to a super long Daytona race) but never once felt tired.

Today, I am pretty much the same. I am not quite as hyper and feel like I can take on half the world instead of the whole world.........but still "up" nonetheless. I am really liking this feeling. But at the same time, I am so scared of the pending crash. I normally don't feel this up for this long. My up times are usually only a few hours....maybe a day. But never two days. When I crash from my highs, its usually pretty bad. Which is why I am so scared now. I have an appointment with a new psych doctor tonight and I am very excited about that. I am really hoping he can help me more than anyone else has in the past.

My questions are many. Do I tell him everything tonight? Do I ease into all my crazyness? Should I tell him about my recent high and my fear of crashing? I never know where to start, how to start, how much information to give right away, etc. I know I have to be totally open and honest in order for him to be able to help me, but do I start off telling him everything? I am thinking of writing down all my concerns and issues to take with me and giving that to him as a starting point. What do you think? Help!!!!