Well im saying she wasnt my first girlfriend i have had three before her but for sex and falling in love she was my first. We are both twenty and she has had boyfriends before me and they all have hurt her. I guess I was so afraid of hurting her with my ego and pride that I decided to make it all about her instead of me. I love her a lot and she knows that I do. I can say I was a little over protective and worried a lot about her when i didnt need too but I did. I think about her everyday and kinda not leave room for myself I understand that now. Im just so mad that it took me so long to see it. I was so afraid of hurting her that I hurt myself and ended up hurting her anyway. I never meant to do this. I never wanted her to feel like her love wasnt enough. She would comfort me and tell me im great. Yet I would tear myself down in order to try and humble myself and not let my pride or ego get into the way. But I guess I gave up too much of my pride and ego in order to try and not to hurt her.