I am less than week away from my next t and pdoc appointments. Both are much needed. I decided I would change my meds a bit, so my Doogie Howser pdoc is going to be very upset with me

She questions me about my choice to self-medicate every time I go. I think I made a good choice this time. I felt better today.
My t asked me to journal about csa. I haven't gotten very far on this, especially since one of the perpetrators is in the hospital and I have gone to visit him, twice. Talk about a f****d up world!
I asked for input here about how to journal in the least painful way a couple of weeks ago and this is what I have found, and the advice I have used-it helps to write in third-person. Also, I wrote a poem about one incident, which helped. Now I am realizing how much I don't remember-just parts of the different times. How do I get through this?
Be on alert, pocket riders, I'll probably ask you to join me next week as the time gets closer!
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