Since I do not experience any of the 'motherly' feelings, I am wondering if my issue is transference at all? I don't want her to be my mother. I don't want her to be anything but my therapist. I am not in love with her, either. I just have these weird sexual feelings when I think about her. Not about 'me' being with her, but about her in general. Does that make sense?

I am not wanting her to hug me or hold my hand in sessions. We have never 'touched' at all. Nothing. Ever. I am okay with that. I am not bi-sexual. So what gives?