I had a therapy session today and made sure that I remembered that she has light blue eyes. I wish she was my mom. Told her that I think I love her more than my mom. Therapist doesn't really think that I love her more than my mom. She asked me today to test who I love most if all 4 of them (parents, herself, person I wish was my dad) died who would I feel most devastated? I so don't want to think about that happening and it upset me. She said she thinks it would be my parents but I said all of them. Sorry I got off subject here. Think I'm going to try and do my best to keep eye contact as it is very difficult for me to do so. However I don't want to stare at her.