I knew she would most likely answer them and she did, even the ones about her family. We talked a little about why I wanted to know, but not much. She and I were both glad that I didn't research her family like I did once, and that I asked her directly instead.

It was a good session except for having to leave when it was over. I told her I'm getting more afraid of something happening to her or her family, not less. We didn't have time to talk about that; I just wanted her to hear it while I was walking out.

This time EMDR went well because I did not try to control the process. She explained why it's okay to go off on tangents though I don't completely understand. The brain gets information from different places and new neural paths are getting made. So whatever I say is relevant even if it's unrelated to the target we're working with. She said something that anyone doing EMDR might be interested in hearing. She asked me at the end if I felt differently when I focused on the target, if it bothered me less. I wasn't sure but I said "yeah, I'm thinking about all the other things I said, not what we were focusing on; it seems like it doesn't matter any more!" and she said "that's the idea!" I said that seems like a trick and she said "no, it isn't." I still don't get it, but I hope it works!!!

Something else was interesting to me. I told her I don't like to be exposed and have her see me blushing or whatever, and she said I notice but she doesn't, that last week when I felt like I had a fever, she didn't think my face was so red at all. Weird.

She also had me, during the EMDR before we finished, think about going to the bathroom before I leave (she knows I do that) and having it be all right if someone was next to me. Talk about TMI. I really, really like my T.