This week, so far, has been awful. And it's only Tuesday. Without going into detail there's just been a lot of things going on in my life that I just don't know how to deal with. I literally just can't process anything that's going on. Feels like I'm numb to everything, actually. So of course, this week happens to be a week where I can't see my T until Friday afternoon. Which, is only a few days away, but I don't know what to do until then.

And another thing that I'm freaking out over is this..I promised myself (and my younger sister) that I'd go to this concert thing that's three and a half hours away on Thursday and I'm panicking over it. I really, really want to go but I also know I'll be a freaking mess (internally) the whole time. I don't want to back out because I'll regret not going, but I don't know how to be okay with driving seven hours in one day and being worried about everything that can go wrong. AH. And my older sister is having this huge birthday party she wants me to go to, but I'm nervous about that too..I said I'd go and it seems like it'll be fun, but I'm already panicking.

What do I do?! My T doesn't have an email I can reach him at, and his phone number is just to his voice mail, which I've never called before..I mean, what would I even say in the voice mail anyway?
"Uhh, hi T. It's your one client who sucks at life. Call me if you have a chance? Kbye."