I would have to agree with what LolaCabanna said--

"BE KIND TO YOURSELF"

sucks at life?

no.

words are a powerful thing.

give yourself GRACE to not be okay

and then after, you might be able to deal with all of the effects
of feeling panicky

its just hard when we critique the way we feel and put ourselves
down on top of being panicked...

doesn't make it any better.

hope you find releif soon.

do whats best for you.

make sure you meet your needs,

because, yes, it would be great if you could
travel and hang out

but, if your panicky the whole time,

that would not make it as fun for everyone else?
so, then, technically, it woulda been better to opt out?
see what I mean?

lol, i do it in my own life,
sometimes, I consider my self unselfish
even if I dont partcipate in something,
cus when i'm in those moments of panic,
i dont want others to be effected by it.

this doesn't mean, however, that we don't ask
for help from those closest to us when we need it!