So, I'm glad and thankful I can come here when I feel I have exausted a lot of my other resources, tools, and coping mechanisms.

So, Thanks PC for at least responding or reading or commenting from time to time.

I just have to say that this is a difficult, difficult week...

On average, how often do you email your T?

I didn't go to session last Friday.. so it was the Friday before that when I last saw my T

and I've emailed her three times during this whole period.

She responded with, "I'm glad writing is an outlet for you. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. I am glad you are being honest about your feelings, confusion, and thoughts...etc."

However, but, when will that get old for her?
because I really want to email again...

basically. I can tolerate with these pains seperatley

1. Chronic Pain
2. Menestrual Pain
3. Emotional Pain

However, when they all come all together, I have thoughts of wanting to die, I get really depressed- I feel I can't handle it all at once, I feel I can't function... its like so painful- makes me want to reach out again but, no. Deep inside, I feel bad for this a lot or scared of abandonment from T.

Also, I really, really, find myself wanting to share music with my T that reflects/sums up how I have been feeling.. cus sometimes this is quicker/easier then trying to find words outloud. I rather her have earphones to hear it cus I think the therapy rooms are too close and I don't
want another office to overhear. idk about an ipod just because Idk what I would do while she listens.. awkward much?

Any suggestions on if you want to share something with your T, like a video, music, etc. in session... how to go about doing it?