Ok where to start.....well im...Iggy. Ive been talking to a friend who also has a bipolar disorder. Um I havent seen professional help mainly because lack of funds. For years I have always kept everything inside, bad idea I know. Every now and then i would basically...explode when I was younger, just about put my sister in the hospital, broke alot of things in the house, and...made bomb threats on my school without really realizing it. But now things have been getting ...worse. My friend ive been talking to has shown me her observations of my actions which are getting agitated easily, explosive anger, blacking out when I get angry, extreme depression to where im having suicidal thoughts and hurting myself, extremely happy at random times, and then just weird moods to where I think of horrible things. I have also been hearing voices, extremely paranoid, and seeing things. Its.......confusing.