I'm very confused at the moment I'm trying to figure out if I have dissociative identity disorder or not. I already have dissociation, anxiety and depression but I just realize that I feel like there's two people inside of me that take control of me.

It's kind of hard to explain but I'll try and some of you who have this can help me decide if I have this.

The first person is miserable and very depressed. This side of me will do anything to destroy any hope I have or any help I'm receiving. When I feel like this I really hate myself and convince myself that this how I need to be. My number goal when I'm feeling like this is to end my life.

I become this hateful person and hurt the people that are trying to help me. Just recently I did everything possible to end the treatment I'm receiving. I made the clinic that's helping me my enemies and told myself that there not trying to help me and manage to lose my psychiatrist that I really care about.

The second person is happy and very positive about the future. When I feel like this I really hate the other side of me (first person). I will do anything possible to destroy the first person that I have inside of me. When the first person messes up and ruins everything for me I feel like I wake up and have to repair everything the first person mess up for me. I have to tell my psychiatrist that I feel horrible for what I've done and try to tell her that I feel like it wasn't me but I feel like she won't believe me and she's deciding if she wants to continue with me or not.

The first person ruined my relationship with my psychiatrist and I won't forgive myself for doing this and losing her. The only reason I would consider hurting myself is to destroy the first person who destroys everything for me and finally win, but suicide is NOT the answer.

Do I have dissociative identity disorder or is it just depression?

Thanks in advance !