Ignoring her response was also escaping the feelings. It is a bit of a disconnect? "Do you walk to school or carry your lunch?" Yes it may have been fun to drink and get high with your friends but what does that have to do with the stress of the stressful night; you did not do anything with that, just pushed it to one side for a bit.

You did not start to learn (long series of lessons) how better to deal with your stress, did not start to learn how to not need to have ("I haven't got time for the pain. I haven't the need for the pain. . .") that particular kind of stress in the first place, you did not get anything to "take away" with you other than a memory no one else wants or can particularly share?

It's not "wrong" what you do, we make choices and usually those choices are based on what we want, what feels good to us. We have to want to deal with the stress more than we want to avoid it. It is almost exactly like school was; do you want the "A" so later you have more choices of what to do or do you want to mess around in the limited freedom of doing "nothing" and chilling out in front of the xbox or TV for the next hour? At some point though, the limited freedom gets smaller and smaller (the stress greater and greater) and future good choices harder to acquire because of past choices.

ALL choices require a price be paid. You can choose to wreck your health, albeit perhaps slowly, or you can build it working in therapy. Fun now, my little grasshopper, means you have to fiddle for your more meager supper later instead of enjoying the banquet.