That's what I'm saying, maybe it was all me... What if she wasn't mean , what if she was trying to help me and I made it difficult and perceived her as mean? My bio mother was very mean, it's possible right? I'm driving myself insane... And it's a short trip!

I can eat crow like the best of them, and somehow I imagine the begging to be more heartfelt , the pleas from the tortured main character in an after school special, not ugly...lol

I'm really begging for a mother... I know I shouldn't do it, but at night when I'm sitting with "it", little me misses her or anyone other then us.