>> Somehow, I am going to have to work through this.


Deep down, I know she won't reject me or be upset. She never gets upset when I admit something to her. She encourages honesty no matter what it is that I need to say. It is my own insecurity and fear talking when I say she might get mad at me or terminate me.
Squiggle this is your "wise mind" talking. It's wonderful that you know these things. Try to hold onto them - even if it means printing out this part of yr post and keeping it in yr pocket. Might even be good to show T when you bring up this subject, so she will know how you need her to respond!

We are working through some issues


........She also said something like I am starved for love and affection. Since I don't love myself, I seek that out from others. Once I learn to love myself and accept myself just as I am, she tells me that my emotions will be easier for me to sort out. I won't be seeking so much validation from others.
wow, yr T sounds like a good one.
This is hard work, very hard work. Please know that I will be keeping you (and yr DH) in my prayers.

proud of you!!!