I am pretty sure it is a mixed state but where i am at mentally is just making it difficult. I think i may be over analyzing everything.

Manic symptoms:

racing thoughts
super excitement about a tattoo im getting (normally always in a manic episode)
cant focus
cant sleep at night (but still tired all day)
irritated

Depression symptoms:
lost hope (not suicidal lost hope in life, just in reaching goals)
extremely tired
reliving bad memories in my head even with stop thought exercises
lack of motivation

I am starting a company and this episode or whatever it is is ruining my ability to get anywhere. I am at the point where i just want the bipolar to stop i was doing so well for a long time and it all just set me back.

im not sure what to do but it is seriously to the point where i may just snap and lose everything.

any advice?