I'm crashing. badly. it's been 1.5 weeks since I've seen you, well since our session, we've said hi in passing around the centre. but the funny thing is I don't want to see you. the thought of coming in in 11hrs makes me feel sick and anxious, not cuz we are going to talk about something difficult, just cuz I don't want to see you anymore. I want to quit therapy altogether. it's pointless.

but I'm not sure I can tell you any of that.