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Originally Posted by ImMentallyILL
I'm very confused at the moment I'm trying to figure out if I have dissociative identity disorder or not. I already have dissociation, anxiety and depression but I just realize that I feel like there's two people inside of me that take control of me.
It's kind of hard to explain but I'll try and some of you who have this can help me decide if I have this.
The first person is miserable and very depressed. This side of me will do anything to destroy any hope I have or any help I'm receiving. When I feel like this I really hate myself and convince myself that this how I need to be. My number goal when I'm feeling like this is to end my life.
I become this hateful person and hurt the people that are trying to help me. Just recently I did everything possible to end the treatment I'm receiving. I made the clinic that's helping me my enemies and told myself that there not trying to help me and manage to lose my psychiatrist that I really care about.
The second person is happy and very positive about the future. When I feel like this I really hate the other side of me (first person). I will do anything possible to destroy the first person that I have inside of me. When the first person messes up and ruins everything for me I feel like I wake up and have to repair everything the first person mess up for me. I have to tell my psychiatrist that I feel horrible for what I've done and try to tell her that I feel like it wasn't me but I feel like she won't believe me and she's deciding if she wants to continue with me or not.
The first person ruined my relationship with my psychiatrist and I won't forgive myself for doing this and losing her. The only reason I would consider hurting myself is to destroy the first person who destroys everything for me and finally win, but suicide is NOT the answer.
Do I have dissociative identity disorder or is it just depression?
Thanks in advance !
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sorry but us telling you whether you have Dissociative Identity Disorder or just depression is called making a diagnosis. we can not do that here.
it is you that must tell us if you have DID or if you have just depression.
you can contact a mental health provider in your town city or one nearest to your town or city and they can do diagnostic tests that will tell you whether you have Dissociative Identiy Disorder or depression or any other mental disorder.
what we can tell you is things like -
whether we have the same issues you have.
what our own treatment providers called these issues in us.
information on dissociative identity disorder
information on depression.
from my own mental disorders I can tell you I have had the same issues. in me these issues were called many things - bipolar disorder, hallucinations, delusions, psychosis, dissociation, dissociative Identity Disorder, chronic depression, PTSD and many other mental and physical health issues.
from my knowledge of the two disorders - depression, Dissociative identity disorder and many other mental disorders do share, mimic, include these symptoms for some people.
many physical health problems can also cause these same symptoms you have.
again we cant tell you what your problems are, we cant make diagnosis here. it is you that must tell us if you have mental disorders.
suggestion contact your treatment providers or a mental health treatment provider near your city or town. they are the people that can tell you whats going on.