Ok, Rapunzel, you asked for it, here is the dream *zenobia fades into blue dream state, wooo wooo wooo*

<font color=blue>I am at work. There is a new gal working with me. She is helping a woman customer with tarot cards. She isn't sure of the answer to the customer's question so she asks me to help. I start to respond to the customer when this guy comes over and I find out that the customer is actually looking for the cards for him. He is extremely obnoxious and scary in an overtly violent way. He has a weapon, I think baseball bat but I can't really be sure, that he is swinging around and he is bouncing off the stacks and being loud. I want to walk away from him but don't feel I can because he is a customer. I feel obligated to help him even though he is way out of line and acting like an ape.

<font color=black>Fortunately hubbies alarm clock when off so I didn't have to deal with the man any longer but now I wonder if I had been allowed to continue the dream if I would have been given a clue to what I needed to do to calm him down. I think the co-worker is my new T. I think the first customer is the person she saw at our session yesterday. I think the obnoxious ape man is my chaos monger.

I just thought of something, Do I want to go to Cathy because she is more responsive and therefore maybe easier to manipulate the Dan? Dan has always been firm with me, very distinct bounderies which left me feeling...shoot I can't think of the word...it isn't unloved, it isn't lonely...Oh heck I hate it when this happens...anyway maybe I know that Cathy will give me the affection that I crave. Is this a healthy thing? Will I use it to my advantage for unhealthy purposes? I better discuss this with her because I do know a big reason I thought of her was how warm she is.

Ozzie, I will start a new thread on the idea of chaos. I am too tired to delve into it tonight but it is an interesting topic and I would love the opportunity to discuss it with the people here. You know things like how we bring chaos in, how maybe we magnify our emotions to breed that chaos. Stuff like that.

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft