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Originally Posted by sittingatwatersedge
Squiggle this is your "wise mind" talking. It's wonderful that you know these things. Try to hold onto them - even if it means printing out this part of yr post and keeping it in yr pocket. Might even be good to show T when you bring up this subject, so she will know how you need her to respond!
Wow, yr T sounds like a good one. This is hard work, very hard work. Please know that I will be keeping you (and yr DH) in my prayers. Proud of you!!!
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I still wonder how she 'really' feels when I tell her something like this. I mean, how would I feel if someone told me that they thought about me in that way? Would it creep me out? Would I feel strange being around this person? I have to admit, I might!
I don't want to disappoint her, either. We had this issue one year ago, and I haven't brought it up again. If I bring it up now, she may think I am regressing. She may think a lot of things. How can I know what she thinks if I don't ask her? She tells me that when I start assuming what others are thinking it causes me to get into trouble.
I am somewhat better tonight. Trying not to think about it. This was my session night and I am sleeping it away. I watched the clock as 5:00 came and went. Then I saw that 6:30 came and went. I am still here and I didn't do anything stupid, so I can say that I managed well.
My husband says I didn't. He says I have been depressed for two days. He insists that it is about her being gone. I don't know. He may be right. But I also have alot of other stuff going on in my life. Her being away right now is just one of those.
Have you ever felt so uncomfortable about therapy that you actually felt sick? Like you took meds on an empty stomach? That is how I feel. Just sick. Don't know why, but I do.