Thank you Bugs,

That is a good idea. I am not a writer and wouldn't have thought about that. Yes fear of being found too probably would have stopped me. You're right I can destroy it afterwards.

I think the weight of the issue and the burden of keeping it to myself is the hardest. I'm a talker by nature, I just loooove to talk stuff through.

I have been working on awareness and I think I got more awareness then I bargained for. That'll teach ya. Hopefully some more awareness as what to do with this will come.

You are right, trying not to think makes me obsess with it.