I was having a really hard time two sessions ago. Really, really thought t was saying my issues weren't important . I was really prepared to have to end therapy (after all this time trying!) and pretty depressed about it.

But I also know t says he wants me to tell him when I'm upset about stuff and he's nice to me when I do. And that's what happened at yesterday's session. He really loaded on the compliments. Generally, I eat up compliments. I'm too embarrassed to say much, 'cept maybe thank you, but it feels good. So now life is all happy again . Like MKAC said, I'm like the character who said " I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and by golly, people like me!" Except, Why does therapy have to have SUCH A HUGE IMPACT ON MY MOODS??? It is really weird having this big a shift in how I interpret stuff in one day. And something tells me it'll just happen again.

Besides that, I'm embarrassed about the compliments, and nervous that they mean therapy is going to get harder. I'm afraid when he's nice, I let my guard down and let him know too much. Sigh. I know I'm supposed to trust him, but two days ago I hated him.

Has anyone else had this much of a confusing swing in feelings about your therapist? Was it hard to trust your t after it?